They are still working on our elevators. The new one is not ready, a sleeping giant. The old one next to it scrapes and moans, as if a whale is stuck in the hallways of this old building. The past being replaced by the future, or at least the present. At one point, it all has to go - even it works most of the time.
Last week, over nine years of my posts were removed from the Impressions of an Expat facebook page. It happened without warning or explanation. Days later, I have devised a few clumsy work-arounds but the headline is clear. Something has to change. Better to chose it than to have it chose me, but here we are. Every Monday, I cram a message into a bottle and share an image - something dear, something that has been unspoken until I press "publish" and then I go back to my day. Hours, weeks, even years later I am still in shock as strangers and friends from every corner of the world read them. Someone in New Zealand, and someone in Bangladesh, New Jersey, Texas. It still gives me pause after watching this magic trick work one more time.
I was in the back seat of a big car a few months ago with an old friend I had not seen for a few years. We were both in New York at the same time, by some perfect accident. "You know, you told me something once." She said in a low voice. "When things go wrong, we just rebuild." She squeezed my arm, saying it again, as if I desperately needed to hear my own words. "We rebuild." I laughed, because I had no memory of saying this in the first place, but accepted that it did sound like me, two words, trying to be inclusive, naming the demon that needed to be wrestled with.
So, that is what will happen in the near future. The site will somehow move to a new platform, and the archives will remain intact. These crazy looking glasses at the past, a gift for my wife and daughters as much as me, a breathing family album of caught moments, butterflies under glass, heartache and joy, milestones and adventures, the ocean and a great bowl of pasta all one big messy string that extends into the darkness.
Thank you for joining us.
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